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[Jun. 25th, 2009|12:17 pm] |
STR:9
INT:13
WIS:11
DEX:13
CON:11
CHR:15
I have the stats to be a... wow, those are sub-par. that's like Class: Tribal villager. With severe muscle issues. |
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[Apr. 16th, 2009|02:03 pm] |
I got another flat tire today. I don't even know how this shit happens, It's fine then in the morning "flat tire Alex". Let's count
*1 flat tire
1 flat tire
*1 destroyer tire
*1 destroyed break line
Electrical console problems
Hole in exhaust
Hole is radiator
Broken boot
*Things I've been able to fix or get fixed.
I'm tired of this bullshit. I can't afford to eat more then 1 meal Wednesday-Friday every week. I don't have the money to keep up with the piles and piles of shit that keep falling on me. It's like every time I get depressed I try and think of good points in my life. It's getting harder and harder to do. Living is an expense that I just can't afford. I'd like to do it, I really would. But whats the point when every day I know all I have to look foreword is another thing fucking up and making my life harder then it already was. It's times like this that for support I look to... oh wait, I DON'T HAVE ANYONE. I'm cursed. ever since I can remember I've said. 'things will get better' But now I'm looking at all of this and realizing. It's not possible for things to get better for me. Things just keep getting worse. Yeah, maybe I am being emo and pessimistic. But I have never seen this much shit happen to anyone else I know. It DOESN'T STOP. |
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| A nice day. |
[Apr. 1st, 2009|01:18 am] |
| [ | I feal... |
| |  tired | ] |
((I'm posting this post as if it was still 11:59 on March 31))
Last night I got to bed at 5am after my friend descided to talk my ear off. 5 hours of tossing and turning on a couch and I was up again. And I was actualy in a good mood. then I visited home for e-mail, social networking, shower, and to do my hair. I learned of the magic that is a straight iron. AWESOME. It was so fukken nice out I decided it would be a good time for a walk...
OK, heres the thing. everytime I try and get my amigos to go for a walk, all they want to do is go on nature trails or scenic ocean-side walks. FUCK THAT its all about the city, a lot prettier birds to watch. ^_^. So me and Gabe venture into Portland with Hacky-sack in hand.
Every time we went into portland last summer we would sit on the bench in the park and be too awkward to socialize with the vast amount of pretty emo, scene, druggy, goth, hippy peoples. But this time I had a philosophy. "When irrational fear starts to well up you simply throw yourself into what you feared" -Alex. So we did. me and gabe joined a hacky-sack circle. For 15 minutes of hack and/or sack I flailed around with epic fail as tools shared there awesome (fake) jail/tripping stories and compared anti-depression medication. Why are interesting and cute looking people suck TOOLS. either way I accomplished something big, prooving that I can overcome my social anxieties.
... Then I went to work ... then I got out of work and played some MTG. and I gotta say, playing that game casually is ALOT OF FUN. Playing it not casually is... Well whats the point in a game where everyone plays the same cards and decks because they are "the best" (the cheapest). I now declare war on non-casual gamers. They have high-tiers, expensive cards, nice computers, lots of gamerscore. and all we will have is lead pipes. |
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[Mar. 7th, 2009|01:05 pm] |
| [ | I feal... |
| |  creative | ] |
So at work I found this hoodie with the fur on the hood and it was wicked comfortable, so I spent the five bucks and got it. I came to a realization, this would be perfect to put cat ears and a tail on. Thus rendering it unwearable by me in day-to-day life. But still awesome. I've now discovered something. Cat ear sewing tutorials are done by teenage girls and very um... informative... Ellipses |
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| Snow day |
[Mar. 2nd, 2009|12:08 pm] |
I was abruptly woken by my stepfather today to go shovel. I didn't mind though because it was 11:30 and I should have been awake + I don't pay rent. So I go from being awake to 15 minutes later shoveling, and I'm actual in a decent mood. My hands get warm and I step inside to warm them. This is what gets me flustered. My step dad starts pestering me about how I'm just procrastinating and trying to get out of doing this. I was just warming my fucking hands, while doing a favor for HIM. and I was going way faster then he could have done it. It's like when I don't complain it bugs him that much more and he gets more on my back. This is a post for a 16 year old, not a 19 year old. I need to get my a+ certification, get a better job and get the fuck out of here.
BUT, I got the new star ocean game. It's cliche so far and I want some of the characters to die. But the Item making system and the combat system make up for that 5 fold. |
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| 9 days you say. |
[Feb. 25th, 2009|12:29 pm] |
Well I've got my tench coat, Ive got my fedora, I've got my self-righteous vigilante attitude, now all I need is a mask filled with black liquid that mirrors itself to look like a Rorschach Test. You can get those at Wallmart, right?
Yeah, I'm gunna be like a starwars nerd and dress up, wanna fight about it? |
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[Feb. 24th, 2009|11:29 am] |
I've noticed that girls are miserable at detecting when someone is full of shit, lieing, and showing off.
((this comment wasn't triggered by an event in my life, just a conversation with a friend. I'm not speaking out of spite, this is what I believe.)) |
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| Hm |
[Jan. 30th, 2009|06:32 pm] |
OK so, I has meh USM paper work now. Filling it out. But I dunno about the major. there are... I think 3 with computers. I dunno if computer science is my thing. Programmers do make alot of money, but office stuff like that is troublesome. I'd rather do IT... But for IT its 'bout certification. If I don't go to college I'll have to pay rent and insurance. I don't wanna do that. Right now I think getting a degree in comp tech while working towards certification. If I get certified and am able to make good money before schools over I can just drop out and keep the credits.
Obviosly finances are not looking good, so I seriously doubt I can to AB this year. Eh, the anime kids have been annoying me as of late anyway.
BUT I am still uber-excited for teh protcons. I have my 'superhero' costume all set.
I Have a PHD in HORRIBLENESS
I even want to do a sweet skit... but I need a hero to shoot a freeze-ray at. Also I need to appear from the audience...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wSWZndOFmcs |
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| School... take 3 |
[Jan. 25th, 2009|02:38 pm] |
| [ | I feal... |
| |  rejuvenated | ] |
OK so I've talked to people, and through the encouragement of Julie, and a couple of my new friends, I've decided that school is probably a good idea.
When I went to SMCC I went late, and I didn't explore my resources (like the resource room). I also failed at planning out time to get stuff done. USM has something called the 'go' program for GED people and people who have been out of academics for a while. It includes some courses on time management and the such. I'm working on planning a time to go in and meet with an adviser to start getting the paper-work and the planning done to get into USM for fall. I've decided that if need-be I will talk to professors and ask them 1 question before I sign up for their class "How long is your longest paper assignment" |
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